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what I have been up to [Wednesday, January 24th, 2007
@ 9:12am]

purplesuicide
last night I went to the gym for 2 hours, one hour was spent in a boot camp class and the other just working out with my friend. I baked chicken and corn yesterday for lunch and a burger for dinner, YUM! Today I went to the gym at 8, I had 5 pieces of fruit and one piece of bacon, I have another class at the gym at 12, rock hard abs, and then lunch with my boy at 1, then kickboxing at 8 and no dinner after kick boxing another hour in the gym with my friend.

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[Monday, May 29th, 2006
@ 2:14am]

slim_twiggy
somedoby please help me im crying harder than i ever have. its been hours. i cant stop. im a fat disgusting pig. im scared. i dont want to be alone. i weaned myself off antidepressantas (effexor) not a good idea. anyone else hate strippers. i do. i hate stirp clubs. i hate what theyre for. my bf says he promises the only stripper he'll ever see is at his bachelor party. anyone else get bothered by fiances having strippers at bachelor parties? im scared.she'll touch him. he'll touch her back. she'll put her breatss in his face, he'll kiss her and lick her and she'll go down on them. what if they have sex? surely his friends will get him so bombed he won't even know what he's ddoing. thats the whole point. see one last babe who will do anything for you before you get to spend the rest of your life with the last lame fuck you'll ever have. unless your one of 60% of married men that cheat.


please tell me my boyfriend loves me. please tlel me its going to be ok. please tell me im not worthless. please tell me im loved. please tell me i can drop from 115 lbs to 100 by july 12th. please tlel me that at 5'1'' i can be beautiful. please tell me i can make him happy. please tell me i can stop crying.

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[Monday, May 8th, 2006
@ 11:25am]

slim_twiggy
i cut out an ad from the newspaper that adertised a ladies gym, and classes that combined pilates, yoga, and exotic dancing. i left the ad on my bathroom counter. mom found it. she got really sad and mad and upset.

things did not go well.

she was upset because she doesnt understand why i need to act so sexual or whatever.
like why cant i just find some other form of exercise

but like all i did was cut out the ad, i didnt even do anything. and even if i did it, it was just for the exercise. like poledancing is supposed to be really good for toning and abs and its supposed to build your confidence and self esteem which i need.

and she was like "yes im sure women do it for the exercise. but most do it for the sex and attention". but like...if that were the case with me, whats wrong with it anyways

and my mom was like "so whats next? videotaping sex? threesomes?" nd im like "....what? how do you get all that?" and she said that none of these thi9ngs have to do with love.

but like...sex is more than love. its a physical activity that includes foreplay, which never can be too spiced up, so who cares right.

im not slutty, i dont sleep around, i'll only sleep with somebody i love, and im not going to be s stripper i hate strip clubs, bu8t its a good exercise but whatever, its not like i'd have enough confidenceto go to one of their classes,

i was just thinking about it. all i did was cut out a piece of paper.

and she said that im so differnt and overtly sexual and too loud and brazen since ive begun dating bobby and she doesnt like it

i just want her to be proud of me. but i dont want to not do things i want to do or feel that is right because she doesnt like it.

but then i feel like i have no respect for her feelings, even though i do.

ive been crying all fucking day. i dont know what to do.

this morning, after i founf the note taped to my bathroom mirror, i talked to bobby about it. he told me that i have to learn to stand up to my mom (lovisa knows a little about my spineless ways lol). i mean, im 19 years old.

but she said that i'd never spoken up like this before and explained myself, and told her to just talk to me instead of acting chilish and taping the ad to my bathroom mirror. she said i had no right to talk to her like that.

she said it was so uncharacteristic of me, she knew bobby had helped me and gave me advice. she is so angry with him.

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[Sunday, May 7th, 2006
@ 10:50pm]

slim_twiggy
10:44 pm
i cut out an ad from the newspaper that adertised a ladies gym, and classes that combined pilates, yoga, and exotic dancing. i left the ad on my bathroom counter. mom found it. she got really sad and mad and upset.

things did not go well.

she was upset because she doesnt understand why i need to act so sexual or whatever.
like why cant i just find some other form of exercise

but like all i did was cut out the ad, i didnt even do anything. and even if i did it, it was just for the exercise. like poledancing is supposed to be really good for toning and abs and its supposed to build your confidence and self esteem which i need.

and she was like "yes im sure women do it for the exercise. but most do it for the sex and attention". but like...if that were the case with me, whats wrong with it anyways

and my mom was like "so whats next? videotaping sex? threesomes?" nd im like "....what? how do you get all that?" and she said that none of these thi9ngs have to do with love.

but like...sex is more than love. its a physical activity that includes foreplay, which never can be too spiced up, so who cares right.

im not slutty, i dont sleep around, i'll only sleep with somebody i love, and im not going to be s stripper i hate strip clubs, bu8t its a good exercise but whatever, its not like i'd have enough confidenceto go to one of their classes,

i was just thinking about it. all i did was cut out a piece of paper.

and she said that im so differnt and overtly sexual and too loud and brazen since ive begun dating bobby and she doesnt like it

i just want her to be proud of me. but i dont want to not do things i want to do or feel that is right because she doesnt like it.

but then i feel like i have no respect for her feelings, even though i do.

ive been crying all fucking day. i dont know what to do.

this morning, after i founf the note taped to my bathroom mirror, i talked to bobby about it. he told me that i have to learn to stand up to my mom (lovisa knows a little about my spineless ways lol). i mean, im 19 years old.

but she said that i'd never spoken up like this before and explained myself, and told her to just talk to me instead of acting chilish and taping the ad to my bathroom mirror. she said i had no right to talk to her like that.

she said it was so uncharacteristic of me, she knew bobby had helped me and gave me advice. she is so angry with him.

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[Sunday, January 29th, 2006
@ 11:40pm]

slim_twiggy
What are you ladies studying to become in high school / college, or what job or career do you presently hold?

I'm studying psychology at college and I am working at Staples Business Depot.

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[Friday, December 23rd, 2005
@ 11:15pm]

slim_twiggy
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve dinner with family and friends.

My mom is baking:

Cannelloni
3 different kinds of chicken wings
Rolls

I know I will have to eat something obv. What do I fill my plate with?

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[Thursday, December 8th, 2005
@ 8:29pm]

slim_twiggy
my water-juice-milk fast began at 6pm thurs dec 8, and it goes til my 19th birthday dinner at 6.30pm sat dec 10. wish me luck.

my stomach hurts so bad i skipped the gym tonight. what should i do to make it feel better?

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workout [Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
@ 5:57pm]

lovelybones11
what are good ways of burning a lot of calories at home inside without workout equipment?
like i know jumping jacks and dancing and stuff, but what works best for you?
what burns the most calories?

thanks!

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[Monday, November 7th, 2005
@ 7:35am]

slim_twiggy
I have a choice for spring classes. should i take a pilates or a yoga class?

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over the years [Monday, October 3rd, 2005
@ 10:26pm]

just_a_gal
[ mood | contemplative ]

haven’t eaten in awhile
i dont even think about it anymore...

its funny how in the beginning every thought of mine was concentrated around food..now i hardly think of it...my thoughts have moved on to other things and this disorder has almost become an innate instinct. that fact alone borders along the lines of terror. Because I’ll always want to be thin but, I don’t care like I used which doesn’t make sense because I eat less and less as time progresses. My body has adapted to starvation mode, I haven’t gotten a period in over a year and I don’t lose weight with my calorie/activity ratio like a normal person would. I’m actually thankful for this..otehrwise I don’t know what would happen…

x-post

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i'm baaack [Saturday, October 1st, 2005
@ 11:23pm]

just_a_gal
[ mood | chipper ]

well i'm back again...havent updated since...last semester?

anyway things are pretty much going well..here are my current stats:

name: mary
height:5'4
weight: 81

i dont really have a goal weight. if i lose i lose...and i know i wont gain so i dont really worry about it.
i'm sure theres plenty of yall that i dont know...hello to you
and for the one that i do, how have you been?

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[Monday, September 26th, 2005
@ 8:24pm]

slim_twiggy
ok ladies. strip clubs and your man. hurtful or not? not about breaking up or not, just does it bother you? cause it hurts me. and i wouldnt tell bobby not to go or expect him to stop. but it hurts. and its hard for me to accept that men, and even some girls, look at girls and objectify them that way. even if lap dances arent even an issue, it hurts that he would need to go, and also that he looks at girls as just things. whatever. im so stupid and insecure. but i feel so alone on this. i have no one to talk to.

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fruit + veggie diet [Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
@ 12:39am]

lovelybones11
[ mood | anxious ]

alright so
since fruit and vegetables seem to be the foods with the least calories,
i have decided to try out a fruit and veggie diet from monday until sunday (one week).

if anyone wants to join me, let me know.
it helps a lot to have someone with you in these sorts of things.

and if you do, make sure you take your vitamins.

x-posted

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[Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
@ 7:33pm]

slim_twiggy
What are your measurements?

bust:
waist:
hips:
thighs:
calves:

thnx in advance.

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Icon bases....... [Saturday, August 20th, 2005
@ 2:45pm]

skinnywins_____
[ mood | Bleh ]

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NEW MOD [Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
@ 1:00pm]

romantic_fuck
ATTENTION: WHO WAS THE ORIGIONAL MOD FOR THIS COMMUNITY?

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[Friday, June 10th, 2005
@ 8:49pm]

makeitchemiccal
x-posted alot

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[Saturday, May 28th, 2005
@ 8:33pm]

swept_away89
Name: Allie
Gender: F
Age: 16
Location: Calif.
Ana? Mia? Both?: Both (earlier this year I went to a therapist and she kept saying that I was ana, but then again I take laxatives sometimes, so that's why I say Mia too- and btw don't pester me about lax, I know it's bad).
Height: 5'3
Weight: 135ish
Goal for next month: 125
Size of pants: 10/11
Favorite quote: I don't really have one.
Biggest thinspiration?: MK
Promote Us two places and provite links: http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=250calsorless and http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=ana_foods

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x-posted [Thursday, May 26th, 2005
@ 11:21pm]

___juliet
HEY SKINNY CHICKS;

NEW COMMUNITY. FRIENDS ONLY-- I'M KEEPING THE ANTI-ANA KIDS OUT. JOIN; YOU CAN POST PICTURES OR JUST WRITE WHAT YOU FEEL.


LOVE,

___JULIET

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[Thursday, May 26th, 2005
@ 3:16pm]

makeitchemiccal

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